- - Unloco - Becoming I 2003

1 Becoming I A someone wounds my face It's hard to take in I'm no overwhelming grace But the way that I live So close to you I feel so ashame It's marse being new 'Cauz I'm falling again The stink smell so real Like I been here before Emotions we'll kill Then life I always knew Because on their lives The world seems to change But since you're alive I feel no more pain Chorus: 'Cauz I have become The one thing I hate 'Cauz I have become The smile on your face There's no need to say The need I made 'Cauz I have become The one thing I hate You wanted things That breathen my skin I've failed all the voids Which I live in Hadn't every time you belled I feel so alive Then you wait to count The many times I die Chorus So close to you x4 Chorus The one thing I hate x3 No, the one thing I hate No, no, the one thing I hate x2 No, no, no the one thing I hate x4 2 bruises Please leave me alone For I cannot let this go It's the lie that I live Everything that I give Shut the fuck up Please tell me that I have grown For I have bruises left to show And I fall in between everything Let me see Come on get up Let me see your bruises 'Cause I will never let you know 'Cause I will never let you go Please leave me alone Let me see, let me see, let me see Come on get up Let me see your bruises 3 Clean Use me as much as you can Cuz youve never been More than a friend Cuz I try to push you away And make myself clean And forget you hurt me CLEAN I don't want to be I dont need to be I don't want to be CLEAN I don't want to be I dont need to be I dont want to be Pressure, the less that I feel The more that I heal And put back the pieces Cuz you keep taking my soul Keep from letting it go And setting me free You keep bringing me down Keep my head above ground The ground that I lay Cuz I try myself every day And say it's o.k. For bringing me pain... CLEAN I don't want to be I dont need to be I don't want to be CLEAN I dont want to be I dont need to be I don't want to be And when I step outside this place All I see is empty And When I look into your face All I see is emptiness CLEAN I don't want to be I dont need to be I don't want to be CLEAN I don't want to be I dont need to be I don't want to be 4 crashing Every time that I bleed It's my affection And every time I come clean It's my humiliation And everything, that I say I say to save myself And everything, that I say Makes my world come crashing down Chorus: Everytime you're near me I feel like crashing down Everytime you're near me I feel I'm crashing Eveytime, that I breathe Is to keep you alive And everytime, that I see Is to watch you say goodbye No more words inside my head To save my ass this time No more words inside my head When it all comes crashing down Chorus x2 Everytime I breathe I breathe for you And everytime I leave I leave for you And everytime I see I see for you And everything I do Has been for you Everytime I breathe I breathe for you And everytime I see I see for you And everything I do I do for you And everything makes it come down Chorus x2 I feel like crashing down x4 I feel like crashing 5 Drowning in it Why are we here I always seem to ask myself Question awerted by the thought of someone else And I'm hopelessly done with the things that I have tried to do Should I give up and let the way just fall on me Day by day I struggle endlessly There's nothing right There's nothing good about this There's nothing right There's nothing great about this life And I will never know How it's supposed to be I keep fighting with the visions inside head I used to feel so much better than today I should be laughing but instead I'm just a mess It's not right, it's not right to feel this way I keep fighting with the visions inside head I turn how much I could take a things And now I feel I'm so drowning in it It's not right, it's not right to feel this way So you're gone what are we supposed to do I told myself not to care a true and true And all this times seems so wasted When end in end and it was all for nothing There's nothing right 'Cauz I'm in a fake madnessy There's nothing right 'Cauz I'm in a fake misery There's nothing right There's nothing good about this There's nothing right There's nothing great about this life And you will always be Another fake part of me Chorus Why do I always feel this way And why do I always feel this way x2 And why do x4 Chorus I keep hiding but drowning in it And I keep hiding but drowning in it x2 And I keep, and I keep drowning in it x2 6 empty i look outside and see that everything is perfect except for me, i'll always be the one who sits and stares and now and then your just my friend someone i could talk to and it's killing me yes it's killing me and i...i feel so empty inside cuz i'm a freak in your eyes i feel so empty inside and it's killing me i look outside and realize how much i'm different you'll never see inside of me, inside just who i am and now and then you're just my friend someone i could talk to and it's killing me it's just killing me and i...i feel so empty inside cuz i'm a freak in your eyes i feel so empty inside and it's killing me i'm outside but i'm looking in i look into your eyes and see that you are perfect except for me, except for me and i...i feel so empty inside cuz i'm a freak in your eyes i feel so empty inside i feel so, i feel so i...i feel so empty inside i feel so empty inside i feel so empty inside i feel so empty inside 7 face down I sign at the world Because you don't seem to care and if i grow old Then you were never there And yet it's hard just to find the only way back inside The only way I could let this go And how i could justify by taking what is deep inside And lie face down And lie face down And if i could Then you were so over this And then we face it's soul I'm face down but no one knows (x2) And if i Bleed The i will bleed for you and it's hard to see to see what i see in you An I just realized that everything that i fear is back in my face only again So put me out on this floor cuz that's the way i've been Since i lied down since i LIED down And if i could Then you were so over this And then we face it's soul I'm face down and no one knows (x2) I feel it's the same thing I've had Since i fell here, I fear I sign at the world Because you don't care and if i grow old Then you will never come back!!!!! I'm face down and no one knows (x2) I feel it's the same thing I've had Since i fell here, I fear I'M FACE DOWN AND NO ONE KNOWS!!! 8 failure Maybe I... I didn't seem to have a thing left to say I bottled it far away And maybe I... I tryed too hard to find someone to blame Or maybe it's me who changed And now I'm left with nothing... Again So what if I lost everything? Would you want me if I was a failure? So what if I lost everything? Would you be there even when I am gone? Baby, I... I didn't seem to give everything away Not because I needed you to stay and I... I couldn't face the fears I've lived for being hung I've tryed to answer every question To why I'm left with nothing... Again So what if I lost everything? Would you want me if I was a failure? So what if I lost everything? Would you be there even if I was gone? Maybe you could've taken all the pain inside of me And now I feel like this was all for nothing Cause I'm left with nothing I'm left with nothing... Again So what if I lost everything? Would you want me if I was a failure? So what if I lost everything? Would you want me if I was a failure? So what if I lost everything? Would you be there even when I am gone? So what if I lost everything? Would you want me if I... If I...was a failure 9 far side I try not to hate you Not to hate me But it just won't go away I see all I can see I'm hoping for a brighter day Watch as you go Watch as I wave goodbye There's no one to know me on the far........side I don't care about your side You don't care about your life I don't care about you I try not to feel the same Not to feel this way A front disguise And I see all I can see I'm hoping for a new life Watch as you go Watch as I wave goodbye There's no one to know me on the far........side I don't care about your side You don't care about your life I don't care about you and when it's gone I won't be there All these things as they pass I'll just fade away and the time can tell me that we're all the same I try not to hate you Not try to hate me But it just won't go away I see all I can see I'm hoping for a brighter day Watch as you go Watch as I wave goodbye There's no one to know me on the far........side I don't care about your side You don't care about your life I don't care about you 10 fold I feel like I don't exist I'm trying too hard to cope with this Cuz if it means too much Then it means too much to me I'm pulling your strings But you're pulling away Its half-past noon Another fucking bad day Cuz I'm screaming At the top of my lungs If I don't get my way (You better watch your back) It's all the same to me I feel so incomplete I never want to change, But I think I'm gonna fold It's all the same to me I wanna let you know Maybe I just don't wanna let you go Cuz if it means that much Then it means that much to me I got a new job but my pocket is broke I want a revolution but I just can't revolt And there's gotta be something out there That makes me feel this way (You better watch your back) It's all the same to me I feel so incomplete I never want to change, But I think I'm gonna fold It's all the same to me I feel I'm gonna fold 11 hands and knees You see me walking away What more could I say than sorry I failed by all your complaints You pushed a life change but it's not me And filthy hands lay upon my chest Lay upon my sin, but I do it for green And in your mind you are blind And your back turn so fine Where were you when I needed you most So mother so father I'm on my hands and knees So mother so father I'm scrounging for what's left of me My self-indulgence to blame For all of the shame in the family You don't know what it's like How I feel how I cry How I hate the way I hate my life So mother so father I'm on my hands and knees So mother so father I'm scrounging for what's left of me Pues madre, y padre esta vida no quiero vivir So mother so father I'm on my hands and knees So mother so father I'm scrounging for what's left of me So mother so father I'm on my hands and knees So mother so father I'm scrounging for what's left of me 12 less of Less of I but more than you I'm less of nothing again I take my life and what I do I feel I'm the last to be saved What would you say That everything here must soon change But you think the machine is a man in the back of my head All the lies, the lies can be the truth if you just want them to be But you'll still push me down You just GET BACK Doesn't matter what I say or how I feel You're out of line So just get back, get back Let, You just can't Let, you just can't Let, you just can't LET IT GO, LET IT GO And if I see his face And I do nothing for this Would you think less of me If I didn't raise my fist All the cracks in the floor Make this life a game for you to push me down For you to GET BACK Doesn't matter what I say or how I feel You're out of line So just get back, get back Let, You just can't Let, You just can't Let, you just can't LET IT GO, LET IT GO Try to understand LET IT GO Doesn't matter what I say or how I feel You're out of line So just get back, get back LET IT GO Doesn't matter what I say or how I feel You're out of line So just get back, get back Let, You just can't Let, You just can't Let, You just can't LET IT GO, LET IT GO 13 make me hate you can't simplify all the the things that burn inside but when you ask i'm fine but i'm lieing all the time so its tough to say when you laugh at me this way but in my mind i'm crying i'm crying all the time so so pick up the vibe make me wanna justify every word thats comeing out your mouth no looking back you better chose a side i'm shakeing within you fake you lied your makeing me hate you you fake you lied your makeing me want to even more can't see any good side of you but i'm trying i'm trying to i can't explain all the damage you can bring but when i'm fine i'm dieing i'm dieing all the time so so pick up the vibe make me wanna justify every word thats comeing out your mouth no looking back all i wanna see is that your shakeing with fear you fake you lied your makeing me hate you you fake you lied your makeing me want to even more you fake you lied your makeing me hate you you fake you lied your makeing me want to even more cause i will always be torn by what i see cause i will always be the same even though i stopped thinking of you can't simplify all the the things that burn inside but when i try i'm trying i'm trying all the time you fake you lied your makeing me hate you you fake you lied ?your makeing me want to even more you fake you lied your makeing me hate you you fake you lied 14 neurotic 'Cause it goes just like you And it breaks just like me And it lies just like them And these walls are protecting me And so the story goes Stripped down its the same And so the story goes You're gonna break every night You're gonna break every night You'll be coming next to me 'Cause it breaks just like you And it fades just like me And it steals just like them It's neverending It's neverending for me And so the story goes Stripped down its the same And so the story goes You're gonna break every night You're gonna break every night You'll be coming next to me I put my blinding faith in you My philosophy says I should And so the story goes Stripped down its the same And so the story goes You're gonna break every night I'm gonna break every night You'll be coming next to me 15 no one look back inside will i ever relize that this day, this man was me? but then i suffocate everything that i relate it's not the same life that we knew it i bleed my life i shed my skin i'm dying deep within cause everything's my fault but then i suffocate everything that i relate it's all your life that we knew it yeah i'm finding out that your nothing better yeah i'm finding out that you just don't care left outside, left to dry so know all the reasons why everything's my fault but then i suffocate everything that i relate it's not the same life that we knew it yeah i'm finding out that your nothing better yeah i'm finding out that you just don't... i can find out that you are nothing better and i can find out that you just don't seem to care not here, not here, not here it's all you give no chance, it's all from me IT'S ALL I GOT! yeah i'm finding out that your nothing better yeah i'm finding out that you just don't care (x2) 16 nothing 've got nothing left for you to take away I know ya blame me for everytime you walked away So what ya hate me and everything I seem to do So look back don't turn away It was my face that you were lying to And in my life you can find everything ya separate And in my life you can find everything ya wanna take away I got nothin I got nothin I got nothin I got nothin I got nothin I got nothin So what its not the same every word out your mouth is shit So look back dont turn away I'm sick, I'm through, and I'm fed up with this And in my life you can find everything ya separate And in my life you can find evrything you wanna take away I got nothin I got nothin I got nothin I got nothin I got nothin I got nothin You saw the door as everything ya separate I know I know You give what you take away So what you hate me and everything I seem to do I know ya blame me for everytime I walk out on you I've got nothing I got nothin I got nothin I got nothin I got nothin I got nothin I got nothin 16 texas sometimes I lie awake in bed thinking about the things you said so lost for words so lost to tell you how I feel so terrified of changing what I thought was real it's too bad you're gone it's too bad you're not alone and I know that you couldn't see that it's just too bad that you're gone and not here with me standing here, trying to make some sense of this there's nothing between us, still I can feel your ackwardness so lost for words so you just tell me i'm your friend there must be one reason only one reason in the end `cause it's it's too bad you're gone it's too bad you're not alone and I know that you couldn't see that it's just too bad that you're gone and not here with me so why are you pulling away? and it must be from things that I say and I'm thinking of thinking again so why do I even care at all? 17 useless Waiting in my room I'm lying on the bed Cuz outside is just too cold I turned the radio loud So I can fall asleep But it's all I've come to know Push me and you Shoved like you always do But nothing's ever the same But how can I explain The damage you have done When all that's left is pain So I tried to stay awake And so I would try and stay awake And so I learn.... I Fucking tried your way And I don't like what I see Cuz I've been put to the test And faced all the rest And useless is all I'll be So I tried your way And don't like what I see And now I'm bored... Waiting in my room I'm lying on the floor Cuz outside i just don't know I turned the radio loud So i can hear me think But it's all I've come to know So I tried to stay awake And so I would try to stay awake And so I learn... I fucking tried your way And I don't like what I see I've been put to the test And faced all the rest And useless is all I'll be So I tried your way And I don't like what I see And now I'm bored... (So I burn a part of me that slowly fades to you, but how can I plainly see what slowly fades to me) 18 watching me slip so I sit here alone trying to find my own way to cope with everything that I've done wrong so I try real hard not to see what you've done to me but I couldn't find my heart and there won't be any silence till its gone there won't be any silence till i'm look away your watching me as I slip away casue everything I know just falls apart now its me as I slip away cause everything I know just falls apart so I try real hard not to see what you've done to me but I couldn't find a way and i'll sit here my own way to cope with everything that i've done wrong and there won't be any silence till its gone there won't be any silence till i'm look away your watching me as I slip away cause everything I know just falls apart now its me as I slip away cause everything I know just falls a-it just, it just falls apart and its cause i'm not enough to bring down i'm not enough to bring you down i'm not enough to make you happy i'm not enough to make you stay 19 whimper Closer, more than you feel Another piece of me lashes out When I'm losing all control Then I see your ways And everything that never changed It's still in you It's still in you It's all this hate I don't want this And pain I don't need this And hate I don't want this It's not the same Whimper with me Too much like a bad dream Another memory lashes out And I'm losing all control But then I seem to fake Everything that once was great Is still in me It's all this hate I don't want this And pain I don't need this And hate I don't want this It's not the same Whimper with me So step off the line I can see it in your face How reality breaks Like the fuckers with the drive-by It's all the same thing Everything is going to fade Pretend to try That you wanna be like me If all the faces looking down means you got none When you think you solve a problem you create one So look in to find look in to find and hate yourself Look deep inside... yourself Look in to find It's all this hate I don't want this And pain I don't need this And hate I don't want this It's not the same Whimper with me

: Seed
: Seed   : 18:05 28.02.2006.

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