MINE When I look into your eyes you help me to realign and show me just how to be myself inside I'm in control of everything it's taking time but that's okay I can bring you to my side You're my blessing in disguise You're mine You're my blessing in disguise You make me realize Just how and where I want to be Years from now When my focal point is set on something I know I'll get It's not a question of how but more of when You're a hot commodity the choice is mine and mine for keeps POEM Overbearing panic attack entrenching my veins In an hour I'll be okay I pray that this pain will go away permanently someday I've seen more than I should have to I've seen this on my own This song is a poem to myself it helps me to live In case of fire break the glass and move on into your own Reoccurring drowning effect entrenching my brain I hope you'll be okay someday so I can say that you moved on in the right way We've seen this and we've breathed this and we've lived this on our own EVERYTHING Grown up an only child One parent home my style was spoiled and doubted Untrusted neglected by others around You saved You saved me You were the only one there for me Loved me dearly treated and supported me right through the thick and the thin Look at me now I hope you're proud You're everything to me Taught to be myself Showed independent Health alone through struggles made it work Ourselves just a mother and child ART Occasionally I feel like the walls around are closing in on me Physically I feel sumtimes I need the seclusion to be free The irony at last I see Reality is my perception And my personality is my reflection I must eliminate and change Yesterdays pains today I finally feel my wounds are healing, releasing and pouring out of me The pressure's success becoming apparently a bigger part of me I'm looking back at the things that I can't remove My past's ok with me The future's brighter than I could imagine it to be MYSELF If life was a game could I win in the end And if I was sane would I fuck it up all over again These questions and answers can help me redefine myself And I thank your open ears for all their help No-More-Shame Is what I see for myself I need to change for my health I need a better way of life for myself If I stay the same how long will I last? Yet if I change will I still just be alone and typecast? Professional answers can't help me to design myself So I thank your open arms for all their help Caressing gateways of the mind over matter through space as time Heals wounds inspiring gifts of light inside myself just need some time Just need some time to myself to figure it out Cause I've got no doubt then when my dreams come true It's because of you and the fact that I let you and I thank you Inside ourselves just need more time WHEN Can't seem to find myself in this smoke filled room again The lesson of being bored and naive so I been told It's just my problem I succumb from the bottom Looking up at the reflection above of those below Yeah, well I know that there's no point in rushing I'll get my chance When the time is right I'll get mine in no time I want to shine with you by my side when is how Now and then Then is now Now for when When is how I live FAULT Why did I let you inside my life? How could I let you inside my body, my soul, my brain? Now I can't make you go away you're driving me insane and inside out I can tell it's meaningful and so hurtful there's no place just to hide I can tell you right now That this pain that I feel is not just inside of my mind I can tell you right now That it's physical and painful to be so vulnerable How could I lie to myself again these bad decisions are a never ending story You'd think I'd know by now just how to bow to smile I can tell you this pain is so unreal can't help but feel left all alone I can tell you to listen to me when I say to you I know this is my fault SUMTIMES What I excel in best is my excessiveness self deprecation I hate myself sumtimes How can I be down when all that I want is in my reach what is wrong with me? (Fuck It) Sumtimes I can feel so touch and go Sumtimes as my self esteem is low Well at least I know sumtimes I'm beautiful Beautiful, and if I wasn't me I'd still laugh at me and point the finger and blame myself as well I will not succumb to any of my peers I'm in control and I'm losing it Sumtimes as my feelings coincide Sumtimes while I struggle to survive Well at least I know sumtimes I'll be all right Sloth BREATHE Jealousy is raining down on me right now as the fear of losing you is setting in But I'll continue to do my best although it's scary Wondering if this will be my very first time to lose and not to win And I've got no back up plan but I'm not a quitter I try to scream but I can't breathe Can anybody hear me? I try to dream but I can't sleep Can anyone shield me? I shut my eyes and hold my cries to myself My pride's in the shitter but I'm not a quitter Confidence is coming back to me right now and the strength in earning you I'm comin' to Cause I've continued to do my best although it was scary Wondering if this will be my very first time to win and not to lose And I had no back up plan but I'm not a quitter LIKE You look like me I'm sorry for you You talk like me I can't understand you You think like me You're fucking crazy You want to be me But that's okay because You remind me of me Softly But only the good Cause I'm just the mean Hanging by a thread for your honor Just helps me to see inside myself You act like me You're embarrassing You talk like me You don't listen You think like me You're so damn crazy You want to be me But that's okay because When these memories become liquid dreams Just like fantasies and like fallen leaves I guess All I need is to find my desires and set out to acquire them DREAMS Confusing reality I see myself but it's not really me How could it be when I am me I guess maybe it's just a dream C'mon c'mon c'mon wake up wake up And things aren't what they seem C'mon c'mon c'mon wake up wake up And people are fake too I don't lie in dreams although I lye in my sleep And I don't sleep to dream yet everything that I see is haunting Bent truths controlling my world I see the depths of it my toes curl I feel so sick I'm sick of this because I know that I'm not asleep TIME Time Just a counter clockwise in motion Time It requires strength, love and devotion Time A dictation of every person Time Is used to make us free again When we can turn back time To anytime by moving on inside Then will we still ask why all of the time Or be just fine inside our minds Time Grows things older, faster when you find it Time Is a wasting away while we spend it Time A reflection of our pasts' with it Time Is used to make things right again I can see this coming over my mind Cause you're right Inside - My mindАвтор: Seed
Разместил: Seed Дата: 19:41 20.12.2005г.